PATULOY AKONG MANINIWALAIt has really been a SUPER long time since I haven’t blogged. But that does not mean that I had nothing so splendid to share nor had some exciting experiences to share and get immortalized as I post them here. It’s just, I find no *musa* to to push me into clicking the dashboard, start typing my thoughts into words and later on post an entry. So now I guess you’re wondering what finally stroke my heart that I am talking to you right now.
Oh well, I just came home from a party. I was with my BELIEVERS family and sure thing— I REALLY HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE KOALAS. When I say GREAT I actually mean… GRRREAAAATTTT. I really missed them. :’) Before all of us parted ways, I asked them to write on my *musa canvass* and I was glad that there were people [because not all of them was was able to write on it] who were able to put the things they wanna tell me on my blacky.
And now.. their heartfelt doodles are the cause of these tears that were pushed by my heart out of my eyes. Their words are the cause why I’m now right here, blogging again, feeling so loved and filled with so much joy and appreciation. I SO LOVE THEM. :’)
The first thing I read was the letter from Alex but I opted not to finish the whole letter since hers is the last one amongst all. So I started reading my note for them which reads:
I LOVE KOALA BELIEVERS! <3<3>
I know 2008 had been a hard dive for us but see? Our diving and swimming skills had been guided and so nothing stopped our breathing. Glory, love and gratitude be given to HIM; Super friend.
SOORRRYY for all the shortcomings, CHANGES, and even by being ‘me.’ I know nobody can embrace someone wholly. There must be some space for withdrawal. Nega ba? Basta.. I’m sorry!! But with the things that have hurt you, I assure you my sincerest apology. I’m sorry for being me.
I love you guys! Let’s raise our hands to a better 2009 filled with more UBE moments, bonding galores, love, patience and UNDERSTANDING.
I just want to grow old with you. :)
You guys really mean a lot to me.
REMEMBER: Throw yourselves to the universe and the universe will catch you!
Napahaba na ata ang message ko. Hahahaha.
You are my sunshinesssssssssssss guys! Shine on me! MORREEEEE. XD
xoxo,
Yanggee
Then I jumped to reading all the messages. OEMGEE. I cried like a child! Crying had never been this so heartwarming. I really love them. I realized so many things while reading their messages and even after I read all those.
I would really want to ask apologies again for the things that pulled out my craziness that pushed me to hurting some of you. I AM SO SORRY. I realized that no matter what happens, I’ll always go back to you. To the persons who accept me no matter what. You are one of the strongest reasons why I’m still alive. It’s cheesy I know but I speak of the truth. You guys really move me. I love you so much. I could not think of ways on how to thank the Heavens for sending bunch of crazy creatures like you that likewise take the sanity out of me to the stream of a wonderful friendship. I’m crying again. I want to thank everyone who wrote in my book. You’ve given me more reasons to continue living and not existing.
Sab, to your message that deeply moved me- thank you. I am so glad that you know that I’m not only here for you but the rest of the B-family. I don’t know what exactly you wanna say on the first part but please, don’t do something bad to yourself. Thanks too for trying your best to be strong. Time heals all wounds as they say. I appreciate the honesty. Don’t just move on— MOVE FORWARD. I trust you Dearie, I do. Learn to be happy for yourself and for others. Dada! Yours was a laugh trip but still it made me cry. I missed you more! I am happy for you now that you have Vic. You’re blooming and the main reason must be him. I’ll stay pretty and sexy. Wahaha. Feeling? I love that part huh! But I do love you more. Stay safe, too. Dhesai! I hope you understand why I reacted that way when I learned that you’re not coming. It’s just I want you to be there with us. I agree! We should have MORE bondings this new year. Thanks for kissing my love life good luck! I love you, too! Joycie, thanks too for kissing my love life good luck. Don’t worry, when the right one comes along, you’ll be one of the first persons to know. Thanks for everything, too!! I was really touched with this, “Ikaw ang STAR ng BLVRS,” and again it made me cry. To whatever reason why you said that, thanks Joycie! Hugs. I love you moreee! Thanks for always being there. I hope to get closer to you this coming year. I hope to have more bondings to come. Kathee! Super thanks for the message!!!! It was a past blast! Haha. I remember almost everything about our cat-dog friendship. But I am really thankful like you for those nonsense fights because look at where we are right now, enjoying a stronger friendship guided by Him. I’m always here for you. Thanks for everything! Gee, I never saw your friendliness even during those CDGC days as pagpapansin!! It’s destined! We’re destined to be friends and you’re destined to be a part of this family. I love your energy too!! Thanks for appreciating my bubbly personality. I just so love you! Thanks for the wonderful friendship. Keep on shining! Jeyd, it’s the artist in you that brings out the artist in me! I’m also looking forward to another ARTSY SESSION with you. One of the things I hope 2009 could bring into my life is this wonderful soul cultivation of art through people who love their craft no matter how small the society thinks of what they do. You are one of them! I believe in you and your craft! Thanks for trusting my ideas. Yea right! “Let’s indie film!” Haha. Take care of the techies. Love you! Alex!! I’m sorry too! I just wanted to hug you after reading your message and I must admit— you really really made me cry as in super. Maybe because I share the same sentiments, I JUST SIMPLY MISSED YOU. I realized a lot of things and I really want to say sorry for the things that I said that may have hurt you. Thanks for understanding. Thanks for the holidays and I reconnected with you. All I want is to save you guys from pain and hurting but with that it seems that I am asking too much to myself. There are things that I could not spare and I’m sorry for that. I just love you and again I’m sorry for everything. I’m at peace now. Thanks and you know that I’m still here. I really want to thank you too for making me feel that you’re still so near me. Never think that I’ll turn my back on you and to everyone. You are so dear to me.
Have I told you that you guys inspire me?
You guys spell L-O-V-E.
Oo na ang arte ko.
Pero love ko kayo e.
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